Bonus Post- Chapter 30:Diary of a mad woman

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Khalil Gibran "The strongest souls" Quote


So, I came to a very interesting revelation this morning. It seems to me I feel as though I have lost myself in the progress/process of this blog. Im sure as you read this you have NO idea what i'm even rambling on about and thats completely fine. Seeing as this thought has been mulling around in my head for the past few hours if not a day. Seems as of late I have not been writing this blog for myself.  Although this blog I put out each Monday, its become my routine to write it rushingly the night before or day of, just to get the content out. 🙄🤦 

The intention of this blog was to get out my experiences into the world, help me process them and hopefully help some others along the way. However, seems my view has changed as of late. Now, don't get wrong the story is FAR from over, I haven't even mentioned the second surgery yet. It seems to me though that I have been writing as of late just to get something out, not necessarily from a "healing standpoint". I feel ive become so focused on if others have read the blog, how many people have read it, and who and when will people be commenting. It's kind of become more of a borderline obsession I guess. In the grander scheme of things, I feel as though on a certain level the quality of content I have been posting has not been as great as it has been in past posts, and I apologize. This is not necessarily a fault of any of you as readers, its more on myself as the "writer". I don't necessarily want to post content just to post it. I want to put out great content that others can relate to, wether they talk to others about their "situation" (whatever that may be), or not. I want people to know they are not suffering alone, and even though the shoe size, colour, or style may be different. There is someone out there that has been in "your" shoes and knows how it feels.

Going forward, I will try my best to write this blog, and share my experiences in a way that not only is able to bring awareness to the community, but also hopefully some healing to myself.

Thanks for reading.

Comments

  1. COsborne23 June 2021 at 07:27

    I can only speak for myself but I have enjoyed everyone of your ramblings(and I feel like I have understood them as well!) To me it does feel like you are sharing your unbelievably hard journey with us, your readers(fans) while bringing up some very good questions that we could all ask of ourselves. Continue to write, we will read and hopefully you will heal. 🥰

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