Chapter 12: 1st Biopsy results with Dr. J

 

Hey all!

Glad to be writing again, had to take some time to heal of corse. I really missed talking to all of you, not to mention, venting my feelings, and sharing my crazy experiences in the insane journey i'm going through right now. No need to worry though, this story is far from over. God forbid, I couldn't be let off that easy given what's happened until this point. FML😒

I'm trying my best to write this blog in chronological order so it makes sense. However, I couldn't help but write what happened during my big surgery I had recently.  Took me about 5 days to actually write it but its done. Trust me its a doozy, with pictures and everything. Well no, OF CORSE not of the actual surgery, thats just sharing a little too much even for me. Plus they wouldn't allow my phone in the actual O.R. so that also played in as a factor 😆 Its not actually posted yet though so no need to go looking for it. Again chronological order 😉, its too confusing otherwise, trust me i'm LIVING it.

Nevertheless, I feel this is where my cancer story really starts to unfold. As I begin to write the next few posts, I'm going to try my best to hold myself together. If not, I know most of you will understand. Its a lot  to handle, and like I said its the journey ive been given.🤷 OF CORSE this is not anything ive ever wanted  for myself or anyone ever for that matter. However I do find comfort in sharing my story and hopefully being able to help at least one other soul along the way....

I know i've said it before and ill say it again. Please feel free to pass this blog on to anyone you feel may benefit, relate, or just enjoy a good laugh.  I know its primarily at my pain but HEY! its ok I don't take it personally 😉. A long time ago, I set a personal goal for myself, to make at least 1 person smile or laugh each day. If its more than one BRUH! that's a bonus. So pass it on.

Okay.....here...we...go.

So naturally, I was eagerly awaiting the results of my biopsy, the longest 2 weeks of my life.  But I tried to keep myself as busy as I possibly could with work. Given we were still in the heart of the pandemic at this point, it was pretty easy to do. To be honest, I was so focused on work and awaiting the biopsy results that I completely forgot about our "other" fertility results we were waiting for.

I do have to say that this new fertility doctor is a freaking Godsend! Oh how I LOVE HER! She just has one of those warm, comforting, soothing souls that you cannot help but feel safe in her care. That being said, I am not going to say her actual name just incase she would prefer me not to. Despite me not having even 1 little thought or word to say bad about her. LOVE HER! ummm, wait... what's that you ask? am I in a relationship? why yes, I am married, happily married for 3 going on 4 years in-fact. I bet your wondering why i'm professing my love to my fertility doctor? umm because its 2021, and I feel like it, AND she's friggin' AWESOME! THATS WHY.😝 Yeah I know i've been cooped up for too long, but so has everyone else so...... meh.🤷 Just add it to the list of my admirable qualities of why i'm adored by so many.😘

ANYWAY... So I received a call from Dr. J, in regards to our previous tests we did about a month or so prior. Surprisingly enough we hadn't heard anything from anyone in regards to those tests yet. So when she called I was eager to hear what she was going to say. Turns out she had nothing to say, seriously. She still hadn't received the results yet from the lab,  hmmm. She also said she could see that my Biopsy results were on my "patient portal" but was unable to click on them to read the details.  She then mentioned she would follow up and get back to us later that day. Cool, another hurry up and wait moment that i'm now all too familiar with at this point.😐

A few hours later, in the mist of bursting into a full on epic dance battle with my Zumba DVD💃, Dr. J called back. Immediately I ran to my phone, quickly answered it, completely out of breath, and slightly irritated. Why was I irritated you ask? well I was winning the dance battle of corse DUH! but thats neither here nor there. She then said she would call me back so I could actually win my battle, so sweet of her, see I told you she was an angel from Heaven. But I quickly declined her invitation to call back, as clearly this call was much more important than inflating my ego......even more😈.

The doctor then began to say that the results were faxed to her but during a time when their fax machine was not working.  Hence why she hadn't got the results until now. Meh, thats ok, things like that happen, especially when you're working from home like the rest of us. She continued on to say really positive things about our results, which was great and to be honest what we were hoping for. "You both would be ideal candidates for IUI" she reported👏👏👏. 

For those of you who would like the cliff notes: IUI is intrauterine insemination. Basically they "wash" the sperm with soap/water/ and a super tiny luffah, like a mini carwash.💦🚚.....😂😂😂 just kidding. But really, as per Dr. Google, they wash and concentrate the sperm and inject it into the woman's uterus near the time the woman releases an egg to help with the fertilization of the egg. Very cool I know, thank you technology.

However, she then proceeded to open up my biopsy results.

"Ok Laurie, What I can tell you is that you do not have cancer. So that is not something you have to worry about." 

"WTF, Uhhhhhh......ok?" I thought to myself. 

"What did show up in your biopsy were cells related to atypical endometrial hyperplasia"

Huh? Yeah, you lost me. At this point you might as well have been speaking in *enter random foreign language here* (well not Spanish, since I'm able to understand a bit of that, try maybe like Cantonese, Dutch, Hindi, or Swahili. Yeah any of those would suffice)

"But no need to worry about cancer, However, what I am going to do is put in a referral on your behalf to the Princess Margaret Cancer Centre, and have then follow up with you. just as a precaution"

"Uhhhhhh ok?, but I don't have cancer though" I thought to myself.

"ok if you feel thats best, then absolutely go ahead" I responded.

Im sure most of you are "uhhh wtf is endi-plasia something or other"😕. Don't worry I got you. Basically in the uterus, there is an endometrial lining. This is what a woman "sheds"/"bleeds" every month during her period to allow a new monthly "cycle" to start. When someone has hyperplasia, it means their cell tissue is growing very quickly, quicker than normal. But I will go into the rest of that more in the next post.

Naturally, I couldn't help but be nervous, confused and outright WTF. Especially since I didn't really hear where she was going to refer me to, not that it was her fault just a bad connection. Not to mention I kind of blanked out when she said the word "cancer" even though she told me not to worry about it". But I trusted her, and I knew she had my best interest at heart, so that part didn't worry me.

It's the "what was to follow" that certainly had me on edge for sure.

To be continued....