Choosing Joy

Well friends here we are, the first "surgery" in this cancer saga of mine. Not gonna lie you should all get comfy/cozy, maybe a snack, and a drink as I can already feel this one is gonna be long one. Go ahead, ill wait....... All set and ready to go? ok awesome lets get started! I felt there was a reason why it took me so long to write this post. In some warped subconscious universe it’s like I was subconsciously stalling the inevitable.....like having diarrhea at a theme park. 🤷🏻‍♀️💩🚽 Excuse me sir, did you really think that eating 12 deep fried Oreos, chicken shawarma with extra pickled radish, 2 blooming onions, a soft serve ice cream cone dipped in red hot Cheetos, and to top it all off, a lime neon green slushy thats bright enough to glow in the dark and is as big as a moderately sized elephant would have you coming out on the winning end of this? Yeah I didn’t think so either. Just throwing that out there for a minute. 🤪😂. As you can clearly read, I’m back b*tches...

Hi Friends, So I know that this blog was a day late in its posting, but reassured it was for good reason. Not simply for the fact its a long weekend. Im sure for all of us right now that truly means nothing to any of us seeing as where can anyone go in Ontario during pandemic lockdown....Oh pardon me, the grocery store or if you are really feeling adventurous, the pharmacy or the gas station but for the most part thats about it. I actually know that I touched upon this a few posts back, but I wanted to touch on it again. Self love. It seems to be a common term nowadays that everyone and their mother is throwing out into the world. However looking back on it, I never really put into too much deep thought about how important self love really is. As a self proclaimed workaholic, there was never any time to implement self love, let alone set time aside for it. there were too many other things that needed to be taken care of first before I could even imagine taking care of anything that res...

Whaddup Ladies and Gents, Welcome back to another post about my ever eventful life journey. I know as of late i've been posting a lot about my cancer journey, seeing as well....theres just too much not to tell! I thought maybe this week I would switch it up and talk a little, or a lot in my case, about my weightloss journey. As I previously mentioned, i've been overweight my entire life. Actually, no, Let's call a spade a spade. Ive been morbidly obese, most, if not all of my life. I could go into a long winded debate about a nature versus nurture scenario, but what's the point really. What has happened, happened. Which is partially why I wanted to discuss this particular topic on this blog of mine. It was always so easy for me not to exercise and just stay on the couch watching the trashiest dumpster fires on tv. Which often consisted of any of the 90 day fiancé episodes, or even the Kardashians for that matter. Back when I used to still live with my mom, she would alw...

  Hey all, I just wanted to say thank you to all of you who have reached out to me over the week. I really do appreciate it. So where did I leave off, the PET scan.... Even though it seemed as though this test was one of the more easier ones, well in terms of actually doing it. There was quite a lot riding on this test in the long run. I feel at this point both myself and the doctors put a lot into this test, in terms of being able to find out what was really going on. Before I knew it, the test results were on my patient portal, and yet here I was again with the hurry up and wait scenario, seeing as I had no idea what any of it even meant. As much as I wanted to hunt down my oncologist to review the results, I had a minor idea of what they meant, and knew it was better just to wait. Also, seeing as I already told her that I reached out to Dr J about the last results she took what felt like year to review. I was "luckier" this time, and my oncologist was able to get back to m...

Hi all, Hope you're all doing well. Seems this week Im going to be doing something a little bit different. "off the cuff" some might say. Mind you for those of you who have been reading this blog all along, I've never been really "on the cuff" if you will.😆 I had an idea in mind of what I wanted to write about this week, the PET scan results with some funny sarcastic spin on it as I normally do. However, I tried, I really really tried. I wouldn't come, the words just would not form in any sort of way in my head, let alone, flow through my fingers out onto my keyboard.  No matter how hard I tried, pushed, sat and waited. They would not come out. Some would call that writers block I guess.  I've somewhat dealt with that in the past, but this week? this week was different. To be honest I cannot really explain it, all I know, it's beyond my control and unbearably frustrating. My wonderful husband jokes to me each week when I go to write a blog post ...