Chapter 26: Self love

Hi Friends,

So I know that this blog was a day late in its posting, but reassured it was for good reason. Not simply for the fact its a long weekend. Im sure for all of us right now that truly means nothing to any of us seeing as where can anyone go in Ontario during pandemic lockdown....Oh pardon me, the grocery store or if you are really feeling adventurous, the pharmacy or the gas station but for the most part thats about it.

I actually know that I touched upon this a few posts back, but I wanted to touch on it again. Self love. It seems to be a common term nowadays that everyone and their mother is throwing out into the world. However looking back on it, I never really put into too much deep thought about how important self love really is.

As a self proclaimed workaholic, there was never any time to implement self love, let alone set time aside for it. there were too many other things that needed to be taken care of first before I could even imagine taking care of anything that resembled caring for myself. However, little did I know eventually it would all catch up to me. Knowing full well, that "you cant fill someone else's cup, if your own is already empty". On some level i'm sure some of you think of this as a "wasn't she gonna talk about her surgery or something" post. We'll yes I was. However what you guys may not realize, is that in order for that to happen, there is a lot of healing that needs to go along with it, in order for it to come out. That in itself is me showing myself some "self love". The truth of the matter is, I love writing this blog just as much if not more than you who love reading it. That in itself brings me so much joy, which is why I love doing them weekly. I can say with honesty that feeling of love and joy will never change.

Although as of late something is different, something is new. The words are not coming as easy as they used to when telling those stories. More often then not I find it more and more difficult to put the words on  "paper", despite knowing what the end result already is. Seems that my mind has finally caught up to my present life and seems though it hasn't been all sunshine, lollypops, and rainbows everywhere despite what the song says. Liars.😏

Other then learning resilience through this past year, ive learned how important self love really is. The world will not stop spinning if we take a second to lay in bed a little longer with the covers over our heads.    Or go for a walk in a park for 30 mins, socially distanced of corse. Well unless you have a pack of hotdogs in your pocket and decide to walk though a dog park. Not gonna lie that would be awesome, you'd be a hot commodity for sure! some might say "top dog?". Yeah I know, I couldn't help myself.😌

Nevertheless, this brings me back to why this is out a day later. I took the past few days and have been doing as much self love as I could cram into 4 days. Not gonna lie, I could go for more. Just dont forget yourselves people. Pandemic fatigue is a real thing. Love yourselves.

Till next week....