Choosing Joy

Hey all, so I changed up a few things on here in terms of style and how things are looking. Hope you like it! Feel free to let me know what you think! Not to mention, 100% feel free and comfortable to comment. This is a safe space, I want everyone to feel comfortable to join in the conversation. That's the only way we will be able to keep up the awareness, and the conversation going! I bet you're wondering what the heck that is above.... well.... SURPRISE! thats actually endometrial cancer cells from a pathologist's point of view. Interesting eh? Thanks Google. Kinda looks like cotton candy or hubba bubba with whipped cream folded in.... Or not. 😏 Please note, that is not my picture, I do not own it, nor is it my sample. Let's see where did I leave off last time. I had the first oncologist appointment, saved my own life from the creepy dude in the parking garage 💪 thanks to COVID, and somehow still didn't have "cancer" despite being referred to the undis...

  Whuddup all, Im going to try my best to keep the momentum going.  Seeing as I know most of you are busy and have lives. I am going to thin out the posts in terms of when they are posted, don't worry the great content will still be there. Going forward, i'll be posting a new entry every Monday evening for you all to enjoy. Thank you all again for reading this blog, that I truly thought no-one would ever read.  Please help the conversation going and pass this on to whoever you may feel will benefit, or just needs a good laugh.  So I have no idea how they did this, or how I even got this. But the picture above is an exact replica of my uterus! Before and after my hyperplasia diagnosis,  Wow it’s uncanny! They got the smile, rosy cheeks, and stress sweat all the same too!🧐🤣 Well here we are now, having been referred to PMH/PMCC (Princess Margaret Cancer Centre) as I affectionately call it. This is where the ball starts rolling pretty damn quick and a lot of deta...

  Hey all! Glad to be writing again, had to take some time to heal of corse. I really missed talking to all of you, not to mention, venting my feelings, and sharing my crazy experiences in the insane journey i'm going through right now. No need to worry though, this story is far from over. God forbid, I couldn't be let off that easy given what's happened until this point. FML😒 I'm trying my best to write this blog in chronological order so it makes sense. However, I couldn't help but write what happened during my big surgery I had recently.  Took me about 5 days to actually write it but its done. Trust me its a doozy, with pictures and everything. Well no, OF CORSE not of the actual surgery, thats just sharing a little too much even for me. Plus they wouldn't allow my phone in the actual O.R. so that also played in as a factor 😆 Its not actually posted yet though so no need to go looking for it. Again chronological order 😉, its too confusing otherwise, trust ...

  So reluctantly, a few days later I returned to the gynaecologist for my uterine biopsy. Im not going to lie I did not really want to go back, but I didn't really have any other options at this point. I felt very conflicted, naturally, as I have through most of this friggin' shit show of a journey up until this point. On one hand, I couldn't help but feel something was going on with me internally, despite not having any idea of the path that was soon in front of me. On the other hand, why is it that almost all the doctors i've experienced unto this point suck SO MUCH!! GAHHH! 😠 Where is the compassion? the understanding? the G.D. human element?!  Listen, I get it, we all have a job to do, bills to pay, mouths to feed (including our own). From what I've learned, though my life travels, doctors only get paid by the number of individual people they see. Hence why, for most of them, you are only a patient, a "number", and not a person or human being with a b...

  There I was, so bright eyed, bushy tailed, and down right optimistic to think “well, not all doctors are bad, I’m sure, although it was possibly offered in medical school, not all doctors actually took God 101. I’m sure this gynaecologist I’m seeing today will be ok. I bet she’s seen plenty of women. Heck she’s a woman herself! I’ll be juuuuuuust fine”. Well I’m older and wiser now than I was 6-7 months ago and wow did that gynocologist prove me wrong...... 🤨 Once again, this is a 100% true story, it happened to me personally, and I could NEVER make this crap up.🤦🏻‍♀️ So the last time I went to a gynaecologist was about 15 or so years ago,  because I didn't have my period for 6 months. No I wasn't pregnant.  It was then I was told (once again) "your weight is too high, you need to loose weight. Work on that for a few months and come back and see me and we will go from there if it is still an issue." Well I can't really lie, she wasn't entirely wrong. I lo...