Chapter 46: Decisions.....

 

Hey all,

Hope you all had a good week. This week's entry is somewhat off the beaten path, but not too far away from what this blog has been about. I have been mulling things over in the back of my mind, throughout the whole time I have been writing this blog.

Wether we know it or not, this life we have consists of choices.  I guess wether a decision is good or bad, depends on who you talk to. Im sure you read that statement over more than once.😂 Yeah it may seem weird, but thats something I believe. No matter what choices or decisions we make in our lives, each event or situation are all simply learning experiences. If the choice  is something we consider as positive, then through experience, we learn that we enjoyed what the outcome was and what we have gotten back from that decision we made was positive and joyous. This in turn, will have us leaning towards making that choice again in the future, if given the opportunity.

On the flip side, what constitutes a bad decision?

Well I guess it depends on how you look at it. If you are a person with any type of conscience, then you will hopefully know what not to choose in certain situations. Assuming we as humans know the difference between right and wrong. Not to mention, if you have been in that situation before and made a choice with a negative impact either on yourself or others than most likely next time you would choose differently.

Hopefully....

If only it was so cut and dry like that, unfortunately life isn't always that simple. There are so many twists, turns, loops and hoops to go through that even though you may feel you are standing right side up and seeing things clearly. The reality is you are actually sitting upside down and backwards to boot. In those situations, when life just seems like the ultimate sh*t show, no matter what you do either way you just feel like your f*cked. Some may refer to this as being between a rock and a hard place. At the end of the day, you're damned if you do, damned if you don't. 🤷

As most of us know, every action has a reaction. This is where the good and bad karma come into play, what goes around comes around. Cue the Justin Timberlake song.....

Ironically enough, I find myself in these types of situations more often than not it seems. Well especially in terms of this situation.

Deciding to have a total hysterectomy at 36, id say was by far one of the hardest choices ive ever had to make. Despite the decision being already mad for me, wether I knew it or not. Its been a few months now since the surgery and I feel as though im still trying my best to cope. Some days are good, some are bad, but all in all its just how you look at it I guess. Making that conscious decision within myself to keep looking forward and hold my chin high. Now don't get me wrong, some days are much harder to do that than others but it's ok to have those wallowing days and crawl under the bed covers for comfort.

As long as you don't stay there forever......

Life still goes on, moves forward with or without you. Why not make that conscience decision to move forward with it. If i'm completely honest, the fact that I am writing this exact statement, is really not for anyone else other than myself.

Personally, one of the scariest things a person can do is not necessarily react out of spontaneity. But more specifically have a "knee jerk reaction" no matter what the situation. Especially when it comes to major life decisions the last thing you want to do, ideally if you can help it, is react or make a decision based purely on emotions. Which in my opinion is what a "knee jerk reaction" consists of.

However, how do you make a well rounded informed decision when you or someone else's life is on the line? No matter how much time you have to choose what you feel is best, deep in your soul you may always second guess what you chose was the correct answer......

And that will forever be the consequence you must live with.

Until next Monday.