Choosing Joy

Hey all, I know for all of us it’s been a rough few months. Well no, let’s call this sh*t how it’s actually been…… h3ll. The past going on 3 years have been outright h3ll. I’m sure just like the rest of you I’m emotionally, spiritually, physically downright exhausted.  However I feel as though today, seems I’ve had an epiphany. Or I’ve just reached my bullsh*t tolerance level. Nevertheless, it’s time to change some sh*t.  Personally speaking I can’t even say it’s been a “rut” for the past few months. With all that has been happening between the cancer, hysterectomy, medication changes, hormonal imbalances, severe depression, PTSD realizations, and trying to “matrix” my way through this COVID minefield that is out all our front doors. It’s a miracle how I’ve even managed to get out of bed everyday. If I’m truly honest…..I’m just fu*cking over it, yes all of it. 😒🤦🏻‍♀️ Where is the joy, happiness, and the wanting to get up every morning?! Through all of this, I’ve learned so ...

An open letter to all Fertility doctors…... Dearest Mr./Mrs. Fertility Doctor, So this is certainly somewhat unconventional. I know you don’t know me, and yeah I get it, this is weird I’m writing you a letter. Mind you I figured this would be a good idea to help you understand me before we meet for the first time. I’m not exactly sure where to start as so many thoughts are rushing through my head, but I will certainly try my best. Thank you so much for taking the time to meet with me, I hope this will be a good match for both of us. I’m sure as you can imagine this is not anything I thought would ever happen to me. I’m not sure why I was so lucky to win this prize, but here we are. When you first meet me, I’m not exactly sure how I will react, given the nature of the situation. I’m usually fairly outspoken, social, and love to laugh.  However, most likely I’ll be very shy and timid, while eagerly seeking your reassurance that I am in good hands. I feel like I have done all of the r...